First Day Jitters

So tonight was the first meeting. While waiting for my WW buddy to pick me up at work, I went across the street to Starbucks so I could have "one last cupcake". Wow, I really do have an unhealthy relationship with food.

I have to admit I was nervous. I think my WW buddy was, too. On the way in she said "It feels like the first day of school". I was a little upset about how much I weighed, even though I pretty much already knew what the scale would say. Of course, the first words out of my mouth were "OMG I have to lose 110 pounds". I need to change that attitude. At WW, your first goal is to lose 5%. For me, that is 12 pounds. I think I can do that pretty easily. Hopefully in the first month.

I am already thinking of all the things that I won't be able to eat all the time. No more sugary Starbucks, no more Haagen Dazs. I am also trying to plan out what I am going to buy to eat for the week. There are a lot of recipes and ideas and I am not quite sure where to start. I thought that some of the things in the pantry would be ok to hang on to, but even the things that seem to be low cal are really pretty bad!

I just have to remind myself that I want to be healthy, that I NEED to be healthy.